Every now and then, I forget how much I like my son. I love him more than anything. It’s the liking that I sometimes lose track of. Before you start thinking I’m a horrible mom, let me explain. In the scheme of things, I sometimes get so bogged down with work, keeping the house clean, teething and crying, and just surviving in general. I do what I need to do with Robbie to get through the day and don’t always get to spend a lot of extra time just playing.
Not today though. Today was all about Robbie time. We woke up around 7:45, and Robbie and I cuddled up in bed to watch A Muppet Christmas Carol, an important family tradition. He looked at me, impressed and wide-eyed, as I said the lines while they happened on the screen. He laughed hysterically when I sang along with the songs. I think he’s really going to appreciate the finer qualities of film.
This afternoon, Justin went to a Bruins game with the Silletto men, and Robbie and I went on a play date. He went crazy playing with Max, Noah, and Pete; the four boys ran around like mad men. They dumped toys out of bins. They climbed in the bins. They bounced around. They had the time of their lives. And the moms all finally got a chance to catch up.
It turns out that all of our sons have lost their minds. They’re throwing tantrums, sleeping erratically, refusing to eat foods that used to be their favorites… You know, being boys. It’s so nice to know that I’m not alone or raising a brat.
I think the real “liking” came tonight when we finally got home from our play-date-turned-dinner. Robbie patiently waited while I booked a grooming appointment for the dog and talked to a sick friend. He stood in front of me, while I sat on the rocking chair, with his head on my knee. He smiled up at me while I rubbed his head, melting my heart.
When I finally got off the phone, Robbie climbed up into my lap and asked for “wawa” for the first time ever. He snuggled in while I read Trucks Roll, the book he picked out for tonight. Once it was over, he cuddled in a little closer and looked up at me. We made googlie eyes for a little while, and he pointed to my eyes, nose, mouth, teeth, and tongue – wanting to know what each was. And, before he fell asleep, he was able to say and point out “eye” and “nose”.
It was hard to put him to bed. I love those nights where he wants to cuddle a little longer. Time slows down just a little bit and everything else that I have to do doesn’t matter so much anymore. But, eventually, it’s time to go back to reality.
I got the house picked up, groceries organized for cookie baking, and presents wrapped and put under the tree for the Manna family Christmas tomorrow morning. I’m ready for another day with Robbie and promise to make the time to really enjoy his company instead of just moving from one thing to the next so quickly.